ugh.

so i just can’t handle how horribly awkward i feel around guys that i like. i added this guy about 2 months ago now, and i really haven’t even talked to him. i just know him through a mutual friend. i just can’t do it. it’s my anxiety eating me up from the inside. and now my friend who just recently met him is chatting it up on fb. it makes me so annoyed at myself, and so jealous which i hate. i don’t want to feel like that, but i do. it’s so stupid to think that i can’t talk to someone because i feel i can’t, but that’s all i feel, all the time. i just don’t know what to do. i can’t do it. i obviously need help but i just don’t really know how i could. it just seems like i need to get over it and i can’t.